Labradoodle & Goldendoodle Forum
I want to add my thoughts to Belle's goodby post.
The decision to put Belle down was one of the hardest in my 71 years on this earth. Why? Lots of reasons. At 5 1./2 she was way short of her life expectancy. Her first two years were with an owner who gave her up then in and out of shelters. So her good life was limited to around three years. The is not a lot. There was a long shot she could make it with diagnosis and treatment. But I would have had to leave her at the pet hospital. Every time I do something like that I can see the look on her face saying, "I'm not being abandoned again am I?" And I ran the risk of her dying alone. You have ask yourself at a time like this, "Am I keeping her alive for her, or for me?" I know I made the right choice.
One of the things that keeps running through my mind is the mobile vet's statement on her adoption listing, :"This is a once in a lifetime dog." She was.
I guess I should be satisfied that this very special animal was entrusted to my care for three years. But i'm not because she had so much to give.
I really miss getting up of the morning an hearing her announce in Chewbaca (Star Wars Movie) sounds I better get dressed because she was ready to go for her walk.
Blind? Most people we encountered had no idea - unless she ran into something. If she did she'd shake off the sting and go on. She was a neighborhood favorite with the kids. She wasn't a flight risk- she didn't know where she was going. That is unless she heard kids playing in the neighbor's back yard. She'd charge through honeysuckle bushes and assorted other barriers to get to them.
Belle, I hurt really bad right now. I suspect I will hurt for quite a while. But once that clears, I'll be left with these and other memories. I'll carry you with me in my heart for the rest of my life.